1:30am never felt so far from sleep.

Trying to finish this project for work and realizing I need to be less of a perfectionist. I'm really happy with my job right now since I've moved from grunt-work intern to having some wisp of responsibility. I do get to write about my clients now, but I'm a little afraid I got more than I bargained for. Writing 2-4 single spaced pages on high-tech companies who's names I can hardly pronounce, and mechanisms I can hardly comprehend, is a trying task.

Right now I would kill for a volcano burrito, nay, a volcano box.

I quit

alcohol!

This morning I found myself 6am in my car in la jolla, drove to mira mesa to nap and woke up 8am for work. I then proceeded to work for 10 hours in light of me leaving early for a happy hour last week.

I quit alcohol!

Time Relativity

I'm taking my last final in physics tomorrow, half wishing I put my mind to use when it came to choosing majors. I would have loved physics. My favorite book growing up was 'Einstein's Dreams' which formulated fictional thought experiments on the workings of time in the same ingenious manner that made Einstein famous. Somebody once said that it is the duty as a citizen to understand how science works..I agree

k nuff slacking, back to quantum physics

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The time you take to self reflect will save your future self an eternity of regret.

From my frame of reference these last 5 college years have passed with the brevity of 1 year. My 16 year old self looking at me now, 21, would see an eternity into the future. The time I've stayed disconnected is a half-hour to me and a half-lifetime to her. I've aged 3 eons since my dad passed, and a mere 5 minutes since my first love. My drive to work reads 15 min away but from my inertial frame it's an alternate universe 3 light years from my dream. To him we could be together till time stops but to me time has stopped, stalled, and other such stagnancies.

Funny how time itself isn't much but how timing is everything.

Top 5 songs to wake up to

1) 99 Red Balloons - Nena
2) Fidelity - Regina Spektor
3) Today - Smashing Pumpkins
4) Annie Waits - Ben Folds Five
5) Chop Suey! - System of a down

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I made a real mix CD for the first time in ages. It took 2+ hours, and the whole time I was wondering how I had the patience to this every night in high school

Though my music is antiquated, I still love it all the same :)..

Quick week update:

Wolverine was fly. I think girls liked it more than guys not only due to Hugh Jackman's bodacious bod (even his biceps had biceps), but also because it was more of an engaging plot rather than a 2 hour CGI-ified fight-fest.

I'm starting this picture a day project in light of a gallery exhibit I wrote about a few months ago. I am by no means a photographer, but I figure it'd help my pathetic excuse for a memory.

I recently purchased a portable car vacuum, an act in which I've placed way too much symbolic significance in. True, it seems like a reasonable venture, a vacuum to well, vacuum. But in my head of heads it came to symbolize all things aging and changing, the harbringer of maturity sucking out my youth.

Boyfriend and I napped to Anthony Bourdain yesterday which inspired him to vivaciously (and half consciously) proclaim he was dreaming of steak.

Oh yea, and seeing as how this post will be published at 4:21am it seems I've re-adopted my high school insomnia. I haven't slept for two days now