After the fact..

My hard drive's chocked full of pictures

the same picture really, just with slightly different head tilts and eye shimmers
the same energy though
the kind of magic energy two people hoard from the rest of the world
that inspires them to do and be and see and feel
one-ness
one-ness so distracting you forget there's anything outside your bed
intoxicating one-ness that fools without fail
so overwhelming you happily drown yourself in it
until you realize you're just suffocating

the other day an old friend asked if I was finally in a healthy relationship
In my head I was thinking oxymoron. Out loud I replied yes

the other day you asked me if I still wanted to be with you
In my head I was thinking. Out loud I replied no

Hand me some o' that good ol' inspiration

oh wait, I've already found it. In fact, I'm merrily swimming in it's overflowing placenta

After 5 years at a second rate university, 5 million and ten job/internships to flower my resume with, and 5 hours of unending research I've finally realized what I've been waiting for.

Book publishing. So simple. Combines the marketing/publicity skills I've gained as well as the editorial opportunity I need and have amateur experience with..surrounding myself with the written word 24/7, and being put in a position of a book entrepreneur..my life would be, dare I say it, satisfying..

I can see it now..Figured out Christina pitted against my current ever-so-lost, in the career sense of the phrase, self...How full circle would that be, realizing that every mishap and blunder in my SD life was to ultimately lead me into something greater. Guess my hopeless romantic self is still there, but clinging to a frappucino and laptop rather than current boy-toy's hand..

Problem? there's too much shit to apply for now. From internships to associates programs, grad schools to continuing study programs. My skin is thick, and by golly I'm ready for an onslaught of rejection. But somehow, with some twist of fate, I hope next new years is celebrated with Pinot Noir and Dick Clark in my new york studio...

PS: congrats to jayden for being a TA. He deserves something good in life, and I can't wait to pretend to be his TA pet..ahhaha

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See: How I Met Your Mother, Season 1
Hear: Anything by Psapp or The Blow
Read: Confederacy of Dunces, John Kennedy Toole
Play: Bizarre Love Triangle, remake by Frentel

2009, Real Talk

Among the talk of resolutions, retribution, and 08 reflections there's been even greater talk of a web-comic with (as dubbed by Gabe) 'the cortina crew'. Since we talked of it for over the last 6 months, it best go down this year, and chill it will be.

I feel like compiling a new years list. Maybe it'll catch on next year. Maybe it'll just be a wonderful exercise in procrastinating my article due in t minus 3 hours. But here goes!

(an old roomie once said I'm a very goal oriented person. I concur and realize the plans of mice and men etc etc...but half of my goals come true, so I'll forever be a dreamer)

2009 Resolutions

• Be more active/adventurous. Reconnect with love for biking, try surfing more diligently once I thaw out
  
• Don't catch myself hanging out with people I don't really like, learn to keep in touch with the ones I do
  
• Write more, read more
• Make a darn webcomic
  

2008 Resolutions

• Get Abs
• Don't fall in love again
• Don't catch myself doing something I don't care about
• Don't over-think experiences

Major 2008 Accomplishments

• Being published in 8 issues of a magazine
• Gaining a communications job without the needed major, getting that work blackberry I've dreamed of since college
• falling in love and not failing at life at the same time
• Meeting a lot of good people, keeping in touch with half of them
  
• Giving Christmas gifts to my little cousins for the first time, ever
• Not gettting sucked into the drug worlds
• Holding a flippin blog for a year! Tell me about unprecedented dedication =D
  

Desired 2009 Accomplishments

• Get to NY, or at least have a solid plan of doing so by 2010
• Sustain myself with my own income
• Live in Hillcrest
• Have a bitchin' playlist
• Collect all Kevin Smith movies
• Freelance for SD Magazine
• Finish a book, or at least a short story I'm proud about
  

Favorite moments of 2008

• TAO, and the adventures that ensued after that at mira mesa house, mexico, and wherever
  
• Meeting my love :), inebriated or not, and being surprisingly swept away by something I still can't put my finger on.
  
• Sherwin moving down, bringing a sense of home back to sd..the million and 10 hangouts with VA and watcching gossipgirl for the hot screen shots
  
• holiday bush! creating new traditions and molding a pile of brownies into a shit-heap tree and having a legendary night after..LOVE IT, and Finding Santa!
• My sister having her first drink with my in santa barbara, and going back home to realize everyone grows up and my 12 year cuzin has a more profuse playlist than my former 'indie' self
  

Cheers to 2009!