i sometimes

miss this. I've come across this picture way too many times this last week, and I do need to give props to ms. jardiel for capturing something very real. Every month or so I take a moment to reflect on people who've come in and out of my life, and this month, I chose you. I think what I'm so incredibly void of right now is the inspiration to create, and that's where you used to fit so snugly. It shocks me how drastically each college quarter changes my entire life.

I was blessed to be in the presence of greatness this weekend. I've never really been moved to tears by a speaker before, but at the Queer Pinoy Pinay Conference at UCSD, I was highly impressed by a Filipina Queer Identified teacher from the Bay Area. Will update with her full name/website soon, but she talked a lot about love and partnership in a very real, not overtly political (but really, extremely political) way. When she was talking about how she didn't want her children to be hated on for being in a "homosexual" household, when she talked about her children wondering whether they were white or not because of EVERYTHING in the media defines white as standard, when she talked about the gross objectification and double standard of the females in the club scene, I felt it. With a passion.

"What is straight? A line can be straight, or a street, but the human heart, oh, no, it's curved like a road through mountains." -- Tennessee Williams, A Streetcar Named Desire, 1947

I'm also very excited about the SDAFF (san diego film foundation) street team. Not sure if I really got the position yet, but it seems like a kind of kick ass way to be involved in a film festival and being exposed to the organizational aspects of it. Not to mention, getting to meet prominent asian american actors like John Cho come October. I love movies, and love seeing asian americans in movies, so hello perfection. Having invested the entirety of college to organizations in college, I like the idea of being involved in something that exposes me to more of San Diego.

Nice study break, back to Tehran. I'm considering a Middle East studies minor, in order to avoid the real world at all costs. a little ironic?