Soul Search

I do this, a lot. I'm pretty exhausted from it actually.

Situation update: I have my undergraduate degree in economics and political science, which is cool. But it was never what i really wanted to do. I guess I never wanted to cheat my mom out of 80K for an impractical liberal arts degree. I can now balance budgets and predict forecasts to a T. That does not enrich me whatsoever, and that's ok.

Now I'm hoping to finance my own education. The education I wanted for myself, by myself. It's exciting actually, the prospect of studying in classes I'm paying for with my full time salary. And yes I'll be exhausted. And yes I will probably cry myself to sleep a lot. But I'm determined as hell

Went to The Getty this weekend. Finally saw the monet's there! Incredible. Renoir's La Promenade! Exquisite. The Degas' and Manet's didn't impress me much. I'm glad my cousin's interested in the arts too, it'd get pretty lonesome wandering exhibits completely alone.

This is Monet's The Portal of Rouen Cathedral in Morning Light. Gorgeous in person, bland in 2d print. It's all about the texture and optical illusion. His process was cool too - this is one of 30 prints done to study the effects of light on this one particular building. He didn't finish any of them until 2 years after he started. I've decided i'm not the biggest fan on impressionism, but monet has a talent I can't comprehend. He saw how the light dances and captured it exquisitely.