when I grow up, I want to be a bad ass.

i've been pretty inundated with crappy movies lately. However, watching them on a projector with a glass of wine makes a shitload of a difference than my humble 13". I want to be a bounty hunter. Or maybe a warhol factory girl. Seems to me like most movies I've seen lately have been completely inspired by someone else's life. Which is true, all art is recycled. But it's not even subtle about it, it's like here's the millionth adaptation of Warhol's life, probably not the number 1 rendition but definitely top 25. My theory is that all artists are just busy searching for a life more interesting than their own. However, they're getting really unoriginal in trying to cover that up. Some really craptastic movies have really interesting inspiration though.

Fiction is rare-Every book is an autobiography.

I kind of want to read more science fiction. I remember chris gave me a buncha philip k. dick stuff that I naturally shoved under my heap of shit i need to get to before i die. Which is ambitious since that pile is gigantic beyond belief. But I think that stuff is so innovative..I found a website that uploaded a bunch of vonnegut books, and since my boredom at work approaches the most desperate depths, it passed the time. His description of his brother is basically me and my sister verbatim:

"My longest experience with common decency, surely, has been with my older brother, my only brother...

We were given very different sorts of minds at birth. Bernard could never be a writer. I could never be a scientist. And, since we make our livings with our minds, we tend to think of them as gadgets-seperate from our awarenesses, from our central selves...

The minds we have been given enjoy the same sorts of jokes, at any rate-Mark Twain stuff, Laurel Hardy stuff.

They are equally disorderly, too."
-Slapstick, prologue