mister roboto

(this was supposed to be updated 2 days ago but apparently didn't save. damn.)

aside from the fact my opinion was completely neglected in my opinion article, I'm quite happy to see my name on paper. I just wish it wasn't for such shittiness. I'm grateful to artchie and becca who seriously pushed my lazy ass, brent who'd sift through my thoughts at 3am in the mornin, and sherwin who is always critically analyzing my aspirations and gave me direction on this one. thanks.

I cried today, for maybe the third time in my life. It's weird, when it gets you. Or maybe you want it to get you. Anyways, board meeting/retreat/bonding time instigated it. I'm starting to realize how emotionally void I've been, and completely get where and who it comes from. Still, I can change a little. It's not like I'll be a never ending fountain o' tears from this point on, I'll just be more in tune with my inner me. Or whatever

It really is cathartic though. Especially when people you didn't think gave a rat's ass express interest in your life. And it's probably the hour and a half of feeding our egos that did it, but I love that KP is a place for that. Everyone needs a lil' lovin y'know. And with the stuff I was talking about today..it's just been a while since I've talked about shit that I've blocked. And even when I do it's completely skin deep.

So thank you to those who are there for me when I don't say much, but just need to be around people who get that not saying much speaks volumes.

I had a good conversation over chirashi for lunch, and just realized how rare these come by. I lie, it's not too rare since I had an even better one less than 48 hours ago. But it's moments like these where I seriously feel more than plastic. Thinking back to first year, me and tone's 4 hour conversation over korean BBQ was probably a highlight of the entire year. oh wow, so profound - deep conversations=good, shallow conversations=bad. How learn-ed am I.

I really do cherish all the talks I have though =). I just love people who like to waste hours on just being with each other. Another human being is the greatest kind of adventure. (I feel like i ripped this off some cheeseball of a movie..oh well)

ps-i want this bad