pcc

I've been in some form of a PCN every year for the last 7 years. it's a little crazy how we get into this comfortable place, and can just never leave. relationships do that, friendships do that, i'm sure in the future, jobs will do that. well Filipino clubs did it for me, and it scares me how i might, edit, will have to leave this place soon. very soon. After coordinating last year, and taking a step back from that this year, I guess I'm weaning myself off

but i'll still fight for veteranos, for breaking down stereotypes, against sex trafficking, for more accurate media representations of filipinas, for expression. just, maybe not all the time anymore. just, maybe I'll encompass my life around other things now. and it's scary. and it's different, but it's very possibly a good thing like change is good and maturing shouldn't always be bad. not that the last 7 years were bad, they were incredible, life changing, but everything goes stale eventually, it just matters how well you digest things. except for maybe astronaut ice cream.

if anyone is familiar with my take on filipinio organizations, you know it's been a rough one. From wikipedia-ing filipino, to trying to get my grandparents story in a skit last year, to trying to read classics to understand what the damn culture really is, i think we all have issues with the whole 2nd generation shtick. I mean, it's past vs. present, culture vs. cool, parents vs. me, dilemma shmemma.

I just, know i love people in this club, and i love this familiar bond you get around this time of year, and i love that we dance to eye of the tiger and nsync, and i love that people don't leave middle earth for forever, and i love that we're still trying figure out how that alicia keys song goes on piano, and i love that every hip hop song evokes sexual cheers of encouragement, and i love being swiped, and i love that everyone really loves attention and doesn't hide it. I love that me and Brent can go through 4 years of hip hop in our heads, i love how i still fuck around like mad crazy at practice, i love seeing new leaders talking about the things older leaders did when i was a 1st year, i love how nobody gets this who doesn't experience this.

I love how my blogs from 2008 are so similar to the ones from 2002 in regards to pcn. The people are different, but just as beautiful; and the purpose is the same and just as significant.

(i have peter pan syndrome to the worst extent)